filling in the holes

embrace life,
write out a plan,
then dump it all on Jesus,
let him take you by the hand.

in going your own way,
never will you succeed.
ask the one who knows all good,
he is all you need.

through all the chaos,
through all things thick and thin,
hold on tight to he who loves,
then true life will begin.

life is full of holes,
life is full of pain.
when you cling to the life of hope,
a life of love is what you'll gain.

every time

Every time, I laugh it off.
Every time, though you don't see it, my heart breaks, even if only a little.
Every time, I doubt.
Every time, I wonder, what does it mean to you? What do *I* mean to you?
Every time, I want to kick myself for this weakness.
Every time, I go away angry at myself, angry that I'm so afraid.
Every time, I wish it would just go away. Then I wouldn't have to deal with it.
Every time, I wonder, is this worth it? Is there something more out there?
Every time, I want to give up. But I can't.
Every time, you do something that makes me fall all over again, and I forget all the other times.
Every time.